love, like you've never been hurt.

post-jcts

2009-07-25T20:08:00.001+08:00

i realise i'm only blogging once every month now. haha. oh well, it's not like i have a blogging schedule to keep up with, and it also goes to show that i'm really working hard now. =P

i got back my progress report yesterday. since the results were already known, there wasn't any surprises. so here goes: (in order of mark, grade and percentile)

General Paper: 53, D, 73

(the marks were quite funny. i thought i did well for the comprehension but i totally screwed it up and only got 21/50. i thought i did VERY badly for the essay but i ended up getting 28/50. haha. anyway, barely passing still got me a percentile of 73. goes to show how b*d my school's GP is. =X)

Mathematics: 42, S, 12

(i was really upset with myself for failing mathematics again. i know i DID study for it, but somehow it still wasn't enough. i panicked when i was doing the questions on statistics. i keep thinking that i've really let mrs leong down. =( sigh...)

Chemistry: 50, C, 73

(the first paper we got back was chemistry. i thought i would FINALLY be able to get 60 plus for chemistry. but it was a pathetic 49 marks! i was REALLY angry with myself. i could have gotten at least 50 plus if i haven't made those STUPID careless mistakes. i know i shouldn't be too hard on myself since the cohort didn't do very well either. but still....)

Biology: 43, E, 43

(like expected, i failed biology again. i think it has already been a tradition for me to fail biology since the march common tests. i don't know why but i just can't seem to be able to study smart for biology. i need someone to teach me how to study for biology! help! and worse still, i'm always lacking in the main points and terms when answering questions. sigh. but on a brighter side, i managed to pass after moderation! =D and according to chee leong, i'm still top 4 in class! haha. cause there are only 4 people taking biology in my class. -.-)

China Studies in Chinese: 48, E, 28

(considering the fact that i didn't study, except on the actual day of the paper itself, my essays were quite average. it was the source-based questions that killed me. i got like only 7 or 8 upon 30? ouch. i use to score 20 plus for my history and social studies source-based questions. =( i didn't manage to fulfill the exact requirements of the questions. sigh. but then again, how do you expect us to score well when we've only had 2 or 3 times of practices??! )

all in all, there isn't really much to say about my results. just that i'll have to keep working harder. as quoted from the tutors: 'there's no use in being sad over your results already. you can only look forward now.'

[will i really be able to make it? will i really be able to get my As for my H2s? i'm not really sure about this. but i am sure that if i REALLY work hard, i'll surely be able to. but the problem i face now is getting myself to work hard. -.- time seems to be getting shorter and shorter. sigh.]

shall add a quote that i'm using to motivate myself now:

人因梦想而伟大，而这梦想只有靠自己的努力才能够达成！=)

大家一起努力吧！=）

ps: what's wrong with blogger? the toolbar that allows one to 'design' blogposts seems to be missing. weird...

-siLvia =)

june holidays

2009-06-14T00:15:00.006+08:00

it's already almost the third week of the holidays. i hate to admit that i've not done much. only a few chapters for mathematics and chemistry. none has been done for biology, general paper and chinese studies in chinese. sigh. it's not exactly because i've been very lazy. it just that it takes SO loooonggg to finish each chapter. i wonder if i'll be able to make it in time.

i don't know what's wrong with me these few weeks. i feel strangely alone. i think all the staying-at-home days are starting to get to me. i tried asking a few people out. but they are all busy with their own things. i know that i'm not being fair by being upset with them for not making the time to go out with me. and it's not like they have an obligation to spend time with me. i keep having really negative feelings about myself, and i'm even starting to doubt how i view our relationships. is it true that sometimes i really think too highly of myself? i'm not THAT important to them. to them, i'm just another good friend that they have encountered in their lives, amongst the hundreds other good friends that they have. maybe if i don't regard these relationships so highly, it'll make things much more easier for them and for me. i was able to hang out by myself in primary 6. being alone had never been a problem for me. but why does it seem so hard now? have i been too accustomed to having people around me? have i been too spoilt and pampered by my friends? i'm not supposed to be like this. things use to much more easier when i chose to be by myself. i did not have to worry about where the other person is. i did not have to spend a lot of time waiting for the other person. i could go as i like and come as i want. i would be able to rely solely on myself and on no one else. neither did i have to spend time trying to humour the other person nor worry about how the person feels. i would be able to spend time studying at home myself and would not be feeling so lonely like how i'm feeling now. i'm SICK of all these....

i've been 'busy' with the korean and manga versions of hana yori dango. why?! kind of 'late' and 'backward' right? i only start watching the drama after teng, qing and shin are past the 'being-crazy-over-boys-before-flowers' period. -_- anyway, i have to agree that yi-jung is really very handsome. haha...

watching movie with lijun and having dinner with lynn on monday. =)) i'm definitely looking forward to that. =D

-siLvia

i'm 18~

2009-05-10T22:23:00.005+08:00

Happy birthday to me~

i turned 18 on saturday! =) yay.... haha. a big thanks to everyone who made my birthday this year a happy one. thank you people! love ya! =))

my birthday presents for this year (in order of 'appearance'):

1st- jj lin concert tickets from my sister

2nd- new balance sports shoes from my mother

3rd- soft toy dog from ang si han

4th- qing fei de yi on the guitar from ying teng and uncle

5th- wallet also from ms woo and yu ning

6th- cake from the whole class? or also from ms woo and uncle

7th- yellow highlighter and message from shi min and ying min

8th- photo frame and card from lynn

9th- steamboat dinner from dad and mum

10th- cake from my aunt

11th- necklace from my cousins

12th- famous amos cookies from joanne auntie

etc? i sure hope so. haha...

i was very touched by what yingteng and yuning planned for me on friday. thanks guys! and to think i was still telling yuning in the morning that i don't think i'll be getting any surprises this year. haha. feel so bad. >.<

i was really quite pissed off with the class. they sure took their own sweet time to turn up for the cake-cutting. it's not like i really wanted you all to be there. i'm perfectly fine with your absence. ying teng and some of the others who were there early were enough. and because of your PUNCTUALITY, we were all late for gp lesson. and to think those who were late went for lessons first! it was really very disappointing to see this kind of attitude coming from the class, especially when yingteng had already smsed you all beforehand. it really goes to show how much my birthday mattered to some of you. i guess you all were only there for the cake right? well, at least you got what you wanted. the cake was really worth eating.

yesterday after mother's day dinner, my sis and i went to dhoby ghaut to meet my cousin. we went around the CBD area for cakes and donuts. didn't spend a single cent though. =X the food was really quite good and expensive too. -.- shall have them again when i'm richer.

okay. i'm supposed to have finished this 2500 word essay for csc by yesterday, but i've only written 650 words. sigh. i guess i will have to work harder to finish it.

blogging feels like a chore now. haha.

ps: stop giving me the wrong hints!!!

-siLvia

after the mcts...

2009-03-28T14:10:00.004+08:00

wow. after like more than a month, i'm finally back to blog. haha.

lots of things have happened since then. the march common tests, dinner at hyatt hotel with lynn's mother's company, kbox outing during the march holidays with my sis and my cousin, watching pink panther 2, slumdog millionaire and departures with ms woo and uncle kong, etcetra. i have had lots of opportunities to blog, but i just didn't feel like doing it. i guess i am pretty lazy when it comes to blogging. haha.

i have had been overwhelmed by many things, had given a lot of thought as to what i really want and how i should be handling certain matters. i'm not exactly sure if i have gotten answers but i guess i can only live life like how it is now. studies still seem more important than the other things.

life seems dull now and i can say that i'm quite sick of it. there has been nothing interesting recently. as the days pass, it's always just studying, studying and more studying. everyday, it's a chore to wake up, travel to school and to drag myself past the gates into the school. i know what i want in life, but it all seems so unreachable and impossible. i have to admit that i've become quite disillusionised about my life... quoting from the green school's motto, i have the passion and the purpose. however, i don't really know why but i just don't have the most important thing: drive. i know it is partly because i am so lazy, but sometimes when i think about studying, all of it suddenly seems so pointless, and i think i really don't have the talents for studying. sometimes, i feel that i really can't do it. take the march common test for example. i know i studied for it and i was pretty certain of the concepts when i went into the examination halls. however, when i stared at the questions on the paper, they just stared right back at me. had something gone wrong during the studying process? or were the papers too difficult? or was it just because i was not well-prepared for them? to tell you the truth, i think it's more of the last reason. i really don't have much confidence that i'll pass any subject this time. why must junior college life be so clustered with studying and examinations? everytime i look at other people's profiles and photos on facebook, most of them seem to be enjoying life more than i am. is it because of my school or is it just me in particular? sometimes, i have this really silly thought that maybe i shouldn't have done as well for my PSLE and O levels. maybe if i had only just scraped through them and have settled for an education in a polytechnic or ite, my life would have been better and more vibrant now. i could have a more fulfilling life that isn't just about whether i'll be able to pass the next mathematics test or whether i have studied enough and memorised everything before the next practical. there are others out there who are more conditioned and suited for such a life. maybe what i decided to do has all just been a mistake. personal test results of mine usually say that i'm suited for a job that deals with people. maybe they are right. i should have just studied management or counselling instead of applying for the As. i'm even more unsuited to become a doctor. i have neither the talents, brains nor perserverance to study medicine. there are thousands if not millions out there who really want to be a doctor. what makes me more suited then them? people in rj, hc and vj have both the brains and the passion. most importantly, they have outstanding testimonials that are plus-points to their applications. i'm not even sure i'll be able to list down 2 achievements in my testimonial at the end of the year, let alone talk about top 3 achievements. it's not that i'm like the unambitious ones who have not tried for anything or fought for a chance to stand out. i did! i applied for quite a number. and when i thought i finally had a chance with outward bound, it slippped through my fingers again just like that. are results really that important? are results so important that you deny a student a hard-to-come-by chance of going overseas to gain new experiences just because of his/her results? it really isn't fair... i know studies are important and the As are even more important. but i really have no motivation for any of it. i need something or someone to spark off that in me. i need someone to be there and to tell me: hey, it's not too late yet and your doom isn't here yet either. i need someone to push me and to motivate me. someone to let me know that: hey, it wasn't that difficult and it was really all worth it. that's why sometimes i'm really envious of those people who have that specical someone of their own. it's not that i'm desperate. but it's just that sometimes i get lonely too. but how come other people won't feel lonely? i really wish i can be like these people. then i won't need to worry about so many things that are totally unnecessary. sigh. so much for being carefree and always optimistic.... i guess i'm just tired. really really tired of my life...

i'm going for jj lin's concert later. =D maybe he'll support the earth hour campaign and halfway through the concert the lights will suddenly be turned off. haha. lame... -.-

ps: i'm so jealous of shi min. she won a pair worth $128 each. my tickets are only $78 each. sigh...

-siLvia

love is in the air~

2009-02-14T14:28:00.005+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!!!!

met ms woo and uncle kong for breakfast at ikea today. it was really good. shall visit the place more often from now on. uncle gave the 2 of us a sunflower each. thanks uncle! luckily cassandra didn't go with us though. she would have fainted from the scare of the sunflowers. haha.

i'm supposed to be dating my homework now but i'm so hua xin, as i'm dating my computer instead. haha. ><

yesterday was quite nice as i received lots of sweets and chocolates from my friends and my lovely IP1 angel. she's so sweet. and i actually thought that my mortal was a girl. oh my god! so embarrassing. haha.

anyway, yesterday was like the unluckiest day of my life. i woke up with a sore throat, made 2 people angry, screwed up my biology test, kept dropping my phone, had to go for roadrun and 2 of my chocolates melted, covering my plastic bag with chocolate. sigh... so unlucky... hopefully, today will be better. =)

okay. i shall go date my homework now. =)) ciaos~

-siLvia

让我心动的人

2009-01-21T18:54:00.003+08:00

林俊杰 - 让我心动的人

己好久没有你的消息

好久都没有和谈心

好想念你总爱对我说你近来痘痘怎么那么多

如今你是否还留长发

你是否仍每夜迟回家

你是不是还爱咬指甲

oh girl 我今夜好想你呀

梦若和你的一切都是梦

那为何我会心动

谁为了谁为了谁心动在分分钟

风它不肯说

云悄悄飘过

黑夜它依旧沉默

只有天上一颗星星说她睡了

你是否也该休息了

风它不肯说

云悄悄飘过心跳却说服我

没有错让我心动的人是谁呀

愿那在梦中的你会懂

aren't these words very nice? =))

-siLvia

after go green day and class cip.

2009-01-18T17:05:00.006+08:00

okay, since according to ms woo my blog has been rotting like mad and maggots are growing, i shall blog today for a change. =)

i'm doing my general paper current affairs quiz now. wonder how much i should charge for 77 questions? haha. just kidding... still need to complete 4 and a half essay outlines and a full comprehension, and 1 china studies in chinese question later. sigh.

yesterday was temasek's annual go green day. every class has to go to around 4 to 5 blocks for collection of newspapers, old clothes and shoes. because of leo club, i was selected to be a navigator. was in charge of directing the lorry to the different areas for collection of the "rubbish". thought my job would be so much easier as i get to sit in an air-conditioned lorry for the whole session. oh my god, didn't know that my job would actually be capable of killing me.

apart from directing the lorry, i was in charge of arranging and loading the stuff onto the lorry. the job was the same for all 5 locations. it nearly killed my back. ouch. still aching all over now. luckily we only had to go to 4 locations in the end and i got some boys to take over my job at the last location. wished i had been with the class instead. all of them had so much fun. =(( never mind, it was still a good experience and the lorry uncle was a great company. haha.

right after go green day was 33/08's very own class community involvement programme at east coast park. what were we supposed to do there? beach-cleaning! it was SO fun! -.-'' we sure got a lot of 'looks of concern' from the public. haha. nevertheless, the 7 of us were still able to make the experience more enjoyable by slacking, doing random singing and being slightly insane. =))

at the end, the whole class sat at the beach, looking towards the sea and emo-ing. it felt so comfortable. i really like going to east coast park. the place is always able to help me to relax and forget some of my worries. i HAVE to pop by the place whenever possible.

i saw li jun on the way to east coast park! couldn't call her before the bus went off so she didn't see me at all. =( it still brightened my day though. hehe.

photos times!

our lorry, with laura's hand. hey, it rhymes! lol.

at east coast park. the view is breath-taking. =))

sin yee, ying teng and wen shin, with the class and the sea as the background.

failed attempt caused by king kong yu ning.

ah... the final successful product. looks so picturesque right?

scandalous photo. it's quite obvious who's who right? =P

not my idea nor my hand, so don't murder me.

horrible hand-writing. it's obvious who wrote this too right? haha.

my zhi4 ai4 now. i don't own this though. =((

credit goes to an artist spotted at genting highlands. =))

chinese new year hamper from my dad's friend. it's so nice!

contains bird nest and chicken essence from eu yang sang. yum~

oh yeah, in case some of you still don't know, my most memorable experience from my trip to malaysia was that i got into the casino again and played jackpot! haha. the guard didn't let me go in initially, but i told him, 'huh? but i'm 23 leh!' LOL.

sorry sis, you'll just have to wait until you're of age to go in. haha.

okay, shall continue doing my work now. next time then. ciaos!

-siLvia

school reopening in 4 days...

2009-01-09T01:00:00.003+08:00

okay, i've nothing much to talk about except that school reopens in 4 days' time and i'm no where near finishing all of my homework! AH!!!!!

i still have 6 essay outlines and 2 comprehensions for general paper, 2 essay questions for china studies in chinese and 1 anderson junior college promotional paper 2008 for mathematics. sigh. don't feel like completing them though.

i kind of want school to reopen soon but the thought of how hectic and DISGUSTING school life will be this year really scares me. sigh. oh yeah, my mathematics diagnostic test was WAY screwed up. i did study for it, but somehow i just blanked out upon seeing the questions. any kind soul willing to tutor me in mathematics for free?

-siLvia

back in s'pore

2008-12-26T02:31:00.003+08:00

i'm back in singapore! so many things to say but so little time. so i shall blog about the trip the next time then. look forward to it! =P

-siLvia

going off to malaysia soon

2008-12-20T03:24:00.004+08:00

going off to malaysia in another 1 hour's time so my sister and i are not planning to sleep at all. =P

quite a lot of things happened for these few days but i'm just to lazy to update. haha.

tuesday:

went to tampines gym in the morning with yuning and met up with yingteng for lunch. watched twilight! the tickets cost $10 each. ouch. had 2 full hours to spend before the movie started so we went to the acarde and also did some random stuff around the shopping centre, like going into toy 'r' us. haha.

as a result of our loitering, we went into the cinema slightly late and the advertisements had already started. had to squeeze past a little girl and her mother in order to get to our seats. and guess what happened? i knocked down the girl's drink. she was quite wet and i didn't realised it at all until yingteng told me. ><

to make things BETTER, there were 3 girls sitting beside me during the movie that COULD NOT stop talking. they were talking about the storyline and making stupid noises. had to glare and 'shused' them. but over all, the movie was great! sorry all hard-core twilight fans, edward cullens is NOT good-looking. he's very charming and mesmerizing though. hehez. really love the part where they played baseball. now i want an extraordinary boyfriend like yingteng too. haha.

thursday:

was dragged to the institute of mental health by my sister for volunteerism work. turned out that we were doing ward visits instead of helping them to sort clothes. -.-" saw sye mun as a volunteer there with her friends too. o.0 the ward visit was much better than i expected. the patients were quite adorable and interesting. lol. maybe i'll try volunteering there again. =)

friday:

6 faith class gathering at mrs choo's house! 21 people came in total, which was like a great achievement. well done jingwei and julynn! didn't get to eat much though as the fire wasn't going well. haha. mrs choo's sons are so cute~ had a lot of fun laughing at them and chatting with everyone. he came too. he's like freaking tall now. he looks more mature too. =) still felt 'something' when i saw him. haha. =X

must really try to make it for the next 6 faith gathering. =))

saturday:

i'm going off to malaysia! won't be back until 26 december, and there's chemistry tuition the next day. sigh. i'm only at question 5 of the entire 12 essay questions. ><

so here's to an early

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

-siLvia =D

end of maths consultations

2008-12-15T18:56:00.004+08:00

after 1 full month of mathematics, countless times of losing hair while trying to figure out my mathematics holiday assignments 1 to 3, i can finally leave mathematics to a side! (for the time being...)

today marks the end of the 3 crazy mathematics consultation sessions with our dear mrs leong. asked tons of questions today, until the others were a bit pissed. haha. can't quite help it though as i REALLY don't know how to go about doing them. ><

on a side note, i'm going for 6 faith 03 's class barbeque! yay! i wasn't able to go initially as it was on saturday, when i'm already in malaysia. but now they've changed the date to friday so i'll be able to go meet everyone! =)) haven't seen most of them for a year and haven't seen some of them for quite a number of years. it seems that many people will be going. =D

hmmm... nothing much to talk about actually, maybe except that i'm going to gym tomorrow and watching a movie after that with king kong yu ning and ms woo. not sure whether chee leong they all will be joining us though. =/

-siLvia

maths assignment 2 =history!

2008-12-08T01:15:00.004+08:00

after slogging my guts out for 2 whole weeks, and being unable to update for the past few days, i've finally finished my mathematics holiday assignment 2! AH!!! okay... there's still assignment 3 and 4, but it's already a big accomplishment. =D

only a few interesting things happened this week. thursday i had a karaoke session with my sister, cousin and her friend. we sang from 7 plus all the way to the closing time 2am. cool right? i totally felt that we had to make our money worth. haha. went crazy during the singing and i sang tons of JJ Lin's songs. xD

stayed overnight at my cousin's house after that. as the place was within walking distance from her house. was supposed to meet lynn for badminton the next morning but couldn't really wake up on time. sorry lynn! =(

playing with my phone outside the kbox before my cousin and her friend came:

slacked at my cousin's house for the rest of the day, before going to hougang mall to purchase some stuff. went off to choir barbeque after that. =)) finally received my BELATED birthday gift from mingying. lol. had quite some fun chatting with everyone. received some shocking news of the leadership positions held by some people in zhonghua now. like how ren jun's the vice-president of council now. haha.
on top of that, i even got hit by a water bomb! and it contained sea water! ouch. at least we were considerate enough to use tap water in the past. the barbeque didn't go as well and the teachers were the ones cooking and clearing up instead! mrs ngiam was saying that this kind of thing never happened when we were still in the choir. haha. guess we are indeed more responsible than them. =P

photo taken at east coast park before reaching the barbeque pit. the sea is so beautiful right? i sure miss cycling there. =(

shall upload the group photos soon when i receive them. =)

going vivocity tomorrow. catching bolt and having mache for dinner. yum~

oh yeah, i came by this while i was looking through some of my stuff. some people might still be able to recognise this, especially huiling. lol. cause they are the keys to the locks of 4e1 07's classroom. this sure brings back memories. sigh...

okay, i shall end here. nights...

-siLvia

back from stayover...

2008-11-30T01:38:00.006+08:00

had been staying over at my auntie's house for the past 2 nights, as my parents are only coming back from genting highlands tomorrow. which means my freedom officially ends tomorrow too. sigh... anyway, i went chinatown shopping today. bought a new shirt. =)

went to causeway point for dinner with lynn, jassie, lijun and yoyo yesterday night. ate ajisen again. haha. had a good time chatting and playing zhong ji mi ma with them there. was super lucky as i only lost once. felt bad for yoyo as he had to take the punishment for junjun too. lol. laughed a lot at stupid jokes featuring junjun's toilet, yoyo's canal and jassie's 'my mummy say...' haha. we were super violent at the arcade. won the guys at table hockey. 6 to 4. yay~

the outing was great. but i felt a bit lonely. =X maybe the next time we meet up again it'll be 10 years later? haha. shan't say why. =P

photos time!

see? i'm all alone. sad right? *sniff* *sniff*

it's quite late already. need to continue my mathematics tomorrow morning too. si han's in taiwan now and yingteng's going to china soon. so i've no one to consult for mathematics now. NO~~~~~

okay. i'll need to rely on myself then. sigh...

-siLvia

left or right??

2008-11-24T17:54:00.000+08:00

i completely overslept today. was supposed to wake up at 6.30am. when i woke up it was already 8.05 am and mathematics consultation was at 8.30am! mrs leong glared at me when i entered the classroom at 9.20am. ><

had to rush to tampines to meet chee leong to get back my assignment 1 before going to school. oh my god. you should look at what he did to my assignment. he actually left it by the window where it got drenched by the heavy rain. knowing that i do all my work in ink pen, i got to witness the wonders of chromatography again. -.-"

got called a lan duo chong by mrs leong for only doing until question 6 of assignment 2. so unfair... i was like one of the few who completed assignment 1... =( still need to go back for mathematics consultation again on 8 december. sigh.

yesterday was like one of my best day since the holidays started. went cycling at pulau ubin in the morning. cycled for 2 whole hours and now i'm sunburnt and aching all over. ouch. nevertheless, it was still super fun. =)

the night was the best! went for JJ Party 3 with my sister, as i managed to get free tickets for it. it was like a mini concert. it wasn't a tea party okay lynn? haha. Lin Junjie was so cute and lame! he even forgot the words at a point of time. lol... love all his songs~

the seats were HORRIBLE though. was sitting at the middle section at first. then a few minutes before the thing started, there were suddenly a lot of empty seats in the front and being all so kiasu singaporeans, everyone ran to grab better seats. i tried running too but when i got there, there was only a single seat left as my sister still didn't know why everyone was rushing in front. and i lost my seat! had to sit right at the back! argh! could only see a SMALL figure on the stage. SUPER pissed off.

evidence of how horrible our seats were and how i need to get a mobile phone with a better camera:

like can you even see a bloody thing on the stage?! i felt like i was watching a television instead. -_- can't really complain much though. as it was still a great experience and his singing was SUPER nice. =D and guess what was on after the 'party'? autograph session! luckily i brought my album along for fun. haha. got my sister to go buy something else while i queued for his autograph. the queue was quite long but i was kiasu enough to rush for it. yup. i've learnt my lesson from previously. on top of getting his autograph, i shook hands with him too! =D but i don't remember which hand i used to shake hands with him. =( i'm quite positive he used his left hand, as he was holding the marker in his right and he shook hands with the previous people with his left hand. so it must be my left hand too right? but the feeling is stronger in my right hand. -.- never mind, at least i asked him to jia you and he responded by saying hao, xie xie. wuahaha. lol. okay, at least i can still see him seated at the table in this picture if i zoom in ALL the way. lol.

met up with my sister after her purchase. and guess what she was buying? JJ Lin 2009 concert tickets!!! AH!!! i have a date with him on 28 march 2009!!! haha. it's my early early early birthday present. thanks sis!! XD

was having fun with my phone camera and the pity-able little number of things i have of him:

now you all know what to get me for my birthday right? i still need his previous 5 albums as i only have his latest one. *hint* *hint* lol. i know i'm not really considered a fan as i only have 1 of his album and a compilation. but i've only been able to have extra money to buy albums starting of this year. so yingteng don't 'scold' me already. =P

this blog post is super long right? it's because i've only just learnt how to upload pictures. haha. so be sure to anticipate lots of pictures here!

shall end on a happy note today. ciaos! =)

-siLvia

no progress made...

2008-11-15T14:58:00.000+08:00

should have been studying mathematics for these few days, but most of my time was spent on watching ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni. -.-" but then again. at least i've finally finished watching it. =)

movie marathon was fun. but i'll never attend another movie marathon again. only slept for half an hour the whole night. my neck was so painful...

the games were fun though. was really 'high'. i didn't ignore him okay? was still talking to him normally. i'm finally over it. =))

eating shokudo for dinner tomorrow. =D

okay. shall go study my mathematics already. ganbatte!

-siLvia

pw is finally all over!

2008-11-07T00:36:00.000+08:00

oh my god! oh my god! oral presentation was over yesterday. which means... project work is officially all over! AH!!!!!!!

went to teo heng karaoke after our oral presentation yesterday to celebrate sin yee and si han's birthday. sang a lot of songs. sin yee went nuts. haha. happy birthday sin yee and si han! =))

had a care rep day camp today. it was OKAY....

movie marathon is on tomorrow night. hope it'll be fun. if not i'll just spend time listening to music. =) yingteng you are touched right? if not for you i won't be going at all. =P (no more chinese literature for me~~)

my current love: ming4 zhong1 zhu4 ding4 wo3 ai4 ni3. it's super nice! haha.

oh yeah, did i tell anyone i've finally gotten my JJ Lin's new album? love it! XD

ps: i'm currently getting over things now. it takes time okay? but i'll definitely make it. =)

-siLvia

i can't stand it...

2008-10-30T01:30:00.000+08:00

2nd entry of the day.

was blog hopping just now. came over her blog accidentally. o.0 from reading her blog entries, i can largely infer that it's probably mutual between the 2 of them.

HATE myself for not knowing this earlier. i should have gotten a clear view of things before jumping in. ARGH. i'm PISSED and DISGUSTED with myself. i'm going to get OVER it.

Yeat Qi Zhen Silvia, you've made enough a fool of yourself! so stop this stupid bloody thing NOW and MOVE ON!!!!!!

holidays are here!

2008-10-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

the holidays are finally here to stay! =)

got back my results today. already knew my grades but the percentiles for my subjects were interesting. chemistry was 74 and general paper was 91. =) mathematics and chinese literature were the best! mathematics was 2 and chinese literature was 4. haha. i'm good right? lol.

today was excursion day. went to the chinese embassy first. had a lecture about china. oh my god. it was like another china studies in chinese lesson. even the speaker sounded like cao lao shi. so as usual, i fell asleep just 10 minutes into the talk. even slept on kelmen's shoulder. >< hope april won't be mad at me. =P

went to the teahouse aka cha2 yuan1 next. it was the same teahouse we went to in secondary 2. learnt how to prepare tea the traditional way and had a short introduction to the traditional chinese wedding. lol. sat together with yingteng, weihui, sinyee, wenshin, yuning, april and kelmen. was quite sad that the snack given wasn't dumpling like the last time. but we realised that our snacks were much better. had 2 pieces of xi2 bing3, 1 cha2 ye1 dan4, 1 tea-flavoured jelly with a large lychee and 2 frozen cream puffs each. wow. both the snacks and the tea were delicious. yum. we had a lot of fun taking weird photos, laughing at stupid stuff, drinking tea and teasing wen shin. =P

really need to thank si han today. if not for him, i would not have been able to survive the first half of the trip. thank you ang si han!

it turned out as expected. fortunately, i was able to pull through. don't you think i deserve a pat on the back? haha. but i think i owe it all to my wonderful friends. thanks guys! =)

there's project work meeting tomorrow. must work harder! ganbatte!

-siLvia

i and r is history too!

2008-10-29T01:30:00.000+08:00

yay! insights and reflections is history too! finally only left with oral presentation. =D

asked yu ning how his 'business trip' to japan went. so jealous of him... now i'm REALLY going to make japan my honeymoon destination! haha. (that is if i really get married. =P)

tomorrow is the last day of school. and it's chinese literature excursion day too! =)

-siLvia

bored....

2008-10-28T01:17:00.000+08:00

i'm bored and tired. but i don't feel like sleeping now. supposed to have finished editting the oral presentation slides and re-writing my script. but i have no mood to do so too. only done with editting our skit.

school starts again tomorrow and ends on wednesday. looking forward to the excursion.

but not really looking forward to seeing the two of them. maybe it still bothers me? somehow we've all realised that they are spending more time together now. but he still denies it or refuses to give me a proper reply when i ask him about it. maybe they are already together and they are keeping it a secret. it's not much of a secret though right? haha.

had the weirdest dream last night. dreamt that i told him my feelings, but he didn't give me a reply. then i questioned him is it because i'm not her? is it because it can only be her? what a weird dream... i guess i've been watching too much drama and anime recently. should cut down on them soon. haha.

do i really feel something for him? or is it all just an illusion? i know he's not the one and neither will i continue this for very long. but i just can't seem to get it out of my head. haven't talked to him much for these few days. no longer msning or smsing him now. told myself to put everything to a stop. i definitely made a promise with myself to give up if we do not happen to wear the same shirt on that friday. 'coincidentally', we've never wore the same shirt again. guess everything's over already. sigh. shall allow myself to move on...

hmmm... maybe i should go to sleep now.

-siLvia

wr is history!!

2008-10-25T23:19:00.000+08:00

WRITTEN REPORT IS FINALLY HISTORY!!!! WOAH!!!! XD

now we only have oral presentation to ponder over. sigh. never mind, king kong yu ning say he'll take full charge of oral presentation. =) project work days are finally over soon. won't have to take charge of everything already. =)

met up with lijun just now. went to orchard road to walk walk. didn't do anything much though. yoyo came with her to orchard road, as she was having a fever and he wanted to escort her there. yoyo's so good to her. i'm jealous. =P

school will soon be over. having a diagnostic test for mathematics before school starts next year. have to go for mathematics consultation too. >< never mind. at least now i'll be more motivated to study mathematics.

-siLvia

no more india

2008-10-15T01:41:00.000+08:00

currently waiting for the printing of my written report draft 3 to end. it's 46 pages long and the total word count is 3575. haha. we'll surely be slaughtered by mr kwan for that. bibliography's not done yet as i'm simply too tired to complete it. will complete it during the next draft. ><

received the email from ms ang just now. as expected, i didn't make it for outward bound india. it was really expected right? since i didn't even make it past the prerequisites set for the promotional examinations. only have myself to blame now.

i really don't feel attached to this school at all. the school claims that opportunities are given to students in many different aspects. but how come i've tried for so many and i've gotten none? if these activities and programmes are to really uncover our hidden potentials, why are the entries all based on results? are results really that important? so what if i didn't get the results the school asked for? does it mean that i didn't try my best for it? does it mean that just because i failed 1 more H2, it makes me less capable than the others? it's not like i'll be tested on all my 4 H2s when i'm in india. will the people and animals there give me an integration test to complete before i'm allowed to move on? will they test me on my chinese literature before giving me food to eat? How can the school judge a student by his or her results entirely? so what if the school has gotten an excellence award? the school only takes care of EXCELLENT students. if you're not part of it, you can forget about standing out and doing a part entirely. is that really education? it really makes me wonder....

on a different note, mdm peng will be helping me to appeal to drop chinese literature and still stay in temasek. this way, i'll be able to carry on with my chemistry and biology. wonder how high the chances are.

the whole results thing is really getting to me. there are moments when i just feel like giving up everything and to drop school entirely. maybe my life would be better pursuing other things that do not require a university certificate. i guess i can always choose to go sell sugarcane juice instead. haha.

looking forward to the chinese literature trip to the teahouse on the last day of school. he's going too~~ =)))

-siLvia

i've lost my sense of direction

2008-10-12T14:10:00.000+08:00

went to have a haircut with lijun in the morning. my hair is much thinner now, but it still looks the same. =S

yesterday was fun. had a 33/08 class/clique karoke gathering in the afternoon. only 5 people from the class turned up! such a UNITED class right? so only 6 people in total: me, yingteng, weihui, yajing, yajing's "friend" and cheeleong. it was fun though. my sore throat was bad, so sorry everyone who had to listen to my horrible voice. =P we sang quite a lot of songs. didn't pay a single cent though. as yajing's "friend" paid everything for us. hehez.

met up with lynn, lijun and yoyo for dinner after that. finally gave lijun her birthday gift. haha. we sat at ajisen for 3 whole hours. bet the people there hated us. we told yoyo all the funny things that happened in zhonghua and about the lamp post and the coconut head. it was a good and enjoyable talk. =D so yoyo's passed the 'test'. now it's jasper's turn. haha. =X

signed the withdrawal form yesterday. going to drop biology entirely. wasn't even allowed to fill in the appeal form to appeal to keep all my 4 H2s. so now i'm in the same subject combination as yingteng. chemistry, mathematics, chinese literature, general paper and china stuides in chinese. didn't want to give up my biology, but i was left with no choice. i should have known that this would happen. if only i had worked harder. but i guess it's all too late now right? not taking biology anymore would simply mean that i'm no longer eligible to apply for medicine. won't even be given an opportunity to apply for it or to attend the interview.

after thinking over the matter for so many days, i realised it wasn't really losing the ability to become a doctor that's affecting me so much, but rather because i've just lost my direction. so where am i supposed to go on from here? i don't know what course i should study in the university and even what career i should choose in the future. it feels very empty to be wihout a dream or even a purpose in life....

looking through university courses. quite interested in NTU's college of science. maybe i can't become a real doctor but i can still become a chinese physician right? lol.

-siLvia

promos results out. yuck!

2008-10-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

got back all of my H2 results today. mathematics was expectedly horrible. but glad that i'll be able to promote, with much thanks to my chemistry and biology. shall list down the exact marks some other day.

so i cried over my chinese literature in school today. big deal?

-siLvia

results are out soon... no....

2008-10-05T22:14:00.000+08:00

should be finishing my script for oral presentation now. but don't know why i can't seem to open my mail. sigh. shall finish it in school tomorrow morning.

haven't updated for ages. but i really wanted to do so on a happier note first. don't feel like going to school tomorrow or on tuesday. results will be out soon. have been wanting to pass all my H2 subjects, but i guess it's not really possible now. the only way i'll be able to pass my mathematics is if my paper is abducted by aliens or if the staff room catches fire. sigh. just praying to pass 2 H2 subjects and to promote successfully now. have given up on going to india too.

planning to drop biology soon, since i won't be able to pass all 4 H2 subjects. no more dreams of becoming a doctor. didn't think i was suited to become one anyway. i lacked both the brains and the hard work. never mind, i still have many job opportunities other than medicine. i guess it's just a lesson learnt for me. shall work hard for mathematics next year!

went to victoria and meridian's openhouse on saturday and friday respectively. meet up with tons of people and my darling li jun. XD

it felt nostalgic to be back in meridian. really missed the place and the people there. was estatic to see them, but they didn't appear to be as excited as i was. maybe i wasn't as missed as i thought. nevertheless, siew min was real happy to see me. =)

so does it mean it's really time for me to move on? there's already no place for me in meridian. temasek is where i belong now. but i can't really connect to the place. feel quite detached from leo club also. sigh.

i guess this post is not as cheerful either. haha. good luck for me tomorrow! shall cross my fingers.

-siLvia

happy teacher's day!

2008-08-31T20:44:00.000+08:00

Happy Teacher's Day!!!

baked cookies at yingteng's house on Thursday night. her mum's very nice. =) and i realised her house's really a conducive place for studying. shall camp at her house for the next few weeks. =P

had teacher's day celebrations on Friday. hadn't been happier for months. =D

mass dance in the morning was lame. sorry qinning! i really only know how to dance s-club. haha. the concert was quite entertaining. love the part where the 2 new teachers imitated the 2 hippopotamus singing 'the lion sleeps tonight'. haha. glad that the teachers loved my gift and everyone loved the jelly i made. told you all it was edible!

took a cab down to zhonghua with kelmen, shiyun and yuning. was estatic to see everyone again. saw all my lovely teachers and met up with my even more lovely friends. FINALLY met up with ernest leong. was a bit pissed off with huiling and szeting initally but i guess i love them too much to stay angry with them. =)

lijun came to my house supposedly to study yesterday but i did most of the slacking. i guess i REALLY can't study with her. haha.

shall crash yingteng's house tomorrow to study. 3 more weeks to promotional examinations!! o.0

wanted to take a photo with you on friday but it didn't work out. i guess we are really not fated. i didn't expect myself to still be able to pick you out from the huge crowd at the auditorium. not that i was trying hard to do so anyway. ><

saw her on stage and couldn't help feeling how talented she is. if you really feel something for her, i would definitely give you support and cheer you on. =)

really don't know when i'll be able to let go of this feeling. sigh.

-siLvia

4 more weeks....

2008-08-23T23:50:00.000+08:00

4 more weeks to promotional examinations. but i STILL don't have the mood to start studying yet... why can't i be just like the other muggers in the world, who can really mug like there's no tomorrow... sigh...

watched Mad About English on wednesday during csc 'outing'. it's really a very nice and funny movie. haha.

"-i have 2 hands, i have 2 hands, here they are, here they are~ can you see my 2 hands, can you see my 2 hands~ one and the two, one and the two~" XD

went for csc talk in the morning at HCI. the first part of the talk was quite interesting, but the second part was really boring. i guess after today, both jin yong and kevin will never dare to sit in front of me anymore. haha. kept trying to pluck out jin yong's white hair, and threw something into kevin's shirt, which he didn't even realise at all. haha. =P

i really can't stand myself any longer. i don't want to continue this feeling but i can't help it at all. kept wanting to talk to him but i know i shouldn't harbour this any longer. just want to be good friends with him, but it no longer seems possible anymore. was i jealous? i guess in some sense i was. because i know that they are really close and they seem much much more compatible.

i guess i'll be able to move on eventually. =)

on the road to becoming a mugger! ganbatte ne!!

-siLvia

happy belated national day!

2008-08-10T16:58:00.000+08:00

Happy belated birthday s'pore!!!!!

(since yesterday was national day, i shall post in red today. =) )

supposed to go over to NUH to hand in our hospital volunteerism forms yesterday, but since by the time we met up the place was already closed, lynn came over to my house instead. we rented 3 movies to watch. definitely, maybe, licensed to wed and 27 dresses. going to watch 27 dresses later. the movies were okay... but definitely, maybe was quite disappointing. ate pizzahut and kfc for dinner while watching ndp. i find this year's ndp so boring after watching yesterday's WONDERFUL beijing olympics opening. lol.

chatted with lynn too. just have to say that both of my good friends are very 幸福 now. feel so happy for them. XD (now it's huiling's turn.... haha.)

going for shortlisting interview for outward bound india on tuesday. it's at 6.20pm..... like what am i going to do before that... -.-

there's no school tomorrow! can do mathematics for the whole of tomorrow...

6 more weeks to promotional examination!!!!!!!! i'm SO dead..... sigh...

-siLvia

i screwed up my bio mock spa

2008-07-29T00:09:00.000+08:00

i screwed up my biology mock SPA, which was conducted today... skills B and D were tested and out of the many requirements for the 2 skills, i only managed to plot my table, which was not even completely filled, and a line that says: there were no anomalous results. wow... like that is going to help me get the full marks of 16/16... -.-

today was an awful day. i had a lack of sleep and i didn't manage to eat anything in school at all... LEO Club rehearsal for investiture day ended at 6.40pm... i nearly starved to death.... but then again, the starvation was worth it as i managed to hand in my WR today. =)

(though it was quite a crappy work done. lol. )

-siLvia

racial harmony day

2008-07-16T23:04:00.000+08:00

today was racial harmony day. some came to school with really interesting and nice ethnic costumes. apparently only sin yee and wen shin wore for our class. haha. april and kelmen's costumes were really matching. =P

civics lesson was on racial harmony and ms cai tested our class on our national education. it seems like we do actually know a lot. haha. contact time was on the introduction to the mazarin programme of tj, which was a programme only opened to the top 20% of the cohort during the promotional examinations, and outward bound school india and korea!! sigh... if only i'll be able to qualify for both.

tomorrow's half day so i'm going to st. nicks with ying teng. =) yu ning can't go in though. jealous? =P

sigh. the first draft of EoM is due tomorrow. and i'm not even halfway through it yet. i've got to work harder! A for project work here i come! XD

-siLvia

JCT results

2008-07-15T23:21:00.000+08:00

got back my progress report for the mid-years today. the tutors' comments were more interesting than my actual results. my comments were generally okay and the tutors were very encouraging. don't worry, i'll definitely work harder! =)

the most funny comment was from my Mathematics tutor mrs leong: "Silvia is a cheerful student who comes prepared for tutorials." HAHA. XD

(if you're not happy with my results, no one is asking you to sign it anyway. don't worry, i'll definitely prove to you that i'm not as lousy as you think.)

-siLvia

nj guitar concert

2008-07-13T17:12:00.000+08:00

went to support lynn for her guitar concert on friday night. took me and lijun 2 whole bloody hours to get to the place... -.- i swear this is the first and the last time that i'm going there. we even missed 5 songs. luckily we still managed to see lynn perform for a few minutes.

lynn really looked very nice in her costume. =) guess all my friends are good-looking right? haha. anyway, we gave her a famous amos cookie and a stalk of rose. we're so nice to her right? =P

saw him during the intermission. kinda expected to see him there, since he's performing too. but i really didn't know that the feeling would still be there. i realised i still couldn't really face him, so i turned away and pulled lijun away with me immediately. i guess i haven't really gotten over things yet. it still hurts a lot deep down. it's been 3 years already, but why am i the only idiot who still can't seem to be able to let go of things? to me, he was really a very good friend, that's why it still hurts so much. i can't forget how close we used to be and worse still, what he did to me. he mattered so much that i still can't forgive him at all. people always say that hatred requires as much energy as love. that's why when i hate him, it really actually weighs a lot on my heart. i even hate him more than i hate that girl. the answer is simple. because he matters more to me than that girl. i'm sure i'll be able to get over her in a few more years' time, but i really don't know if it's even possible for me to get over him at all. a heart once broken can never be properly mended again...

because of him, i was actually emo-ing for the whole of friday. ironically, it was chee leong, who vaguely reminds me of him, who was trying to cheer me up. haha. chee leong, thanks anyway! i really appreciated it. =)

oh yeah, i know my mid-years results already. GP- D, CLL- E, Biology- D, Chemistry- D, Mathematics- U, CSC- E. i'm quite okay with my marks because i kind of expected myself to do more badly. haha. anyway, when i told my dad my results, he asked me to 保重. -.-

-siLvia

strengths quest results

2008-07-13T01:29:00.000+08:00

(strengths quest results from www.strengthsquest.com)

Silvia Yeat

HARMONY

You look for areas of agreement. In your view there is little to be gained from conflict and friction, so you seek to hold them to a minimum. When you know that the people around you hold differing views, you try to find the common ground. You try to steer them away from confrontation and toward harmony. In fact, harmony is one of your guiding values. You can’t quite believe how much time is wasted by people trying to impose their views on others. Wouldn’t we all be more productive if we kept our opinions in check and instead looked for consensus and support? You believe we would, and you live by that belief. When others are sounding off about their goals, their claims, and their fervently held opinions, you hold your peace. When others strike out in a direction, you will willingly, in the service of harmony, modify your own objectives to merge with theirs (as long as their basic values do not clash with yours). When others start to argue about their pet theory or concept, you steer clear of the debate, preferring to talk about practical, down-to-earth matters on which you can all agree. In your view we are all in the same boat, and we need this boat to get where we are going. It is a good boat. There is no need to rock it just to show that you can.

ADAPTABILITY

You live in the moment. You don’t see the future as a fixed destination. Instead, you see it as a place that you create out of the choices that you make right now. And so you discover your future one choice at a time. This doesn’t mean that you don’t have plans. You probably do. But this theme of Adaptability does enable you to respond willingly to the demands of the moment even if they pull you away from your plans. Unlike some, you don’t resent sudden requests or unforeseen detours. You expect them. They are inevitable. Indeed, on some level you actually look forward to them. You are, at heart, a very flexible person who can stay productive when the demands of work are pulling you in many different directions at once.

DEVELOPER

You see the potential in others. Very often, in fact, potential is all you see. In your view no individual is fully formed. On the contrary, each individual is a work in progress, alive with possibilities. And you are drawn toward people for this very reason. When you interact with others, your goal is to help them experience success. You look for ways to challenge them. You devise interesting experiences that can stretch them and help them grow. And all the while you are on the lookout for the signs of growth—a new behavior learned or modified, a slight improvement in a skill, a glimpse of excellence or of “flow” where previously there were only halting steps. For you these small increments—invisible to some—are clear signs of potential being realized. These signs of growth in others are your fuel. They bring you strength and satisfaction. Over time many will seek you out for help and encouragement because on some level they know that your helpfulness is both genuine and fulfilling to you.

EMPATHY

You can sense the emotions of those around you. You can feel what they are feeling as though their feelings are your own. Intuitively, you are able to see the world through their eyes and share their perspective. You do not necessarily agree with each person’s perspective. You do not necessarily feel pity for each person’s predicament—this would be sympathy, not Empathy. You do not necessarily condone the choices each person makes, but you do understand. This instinctive ability to understand is powerful. You hear the unvoiced questions. You anticipate the need. Where others grapple for words, you seem to find the right words and the right tone. You help people find the right phrases to express their feelings—to themselves as well as to others. You help them give voice to their emotional life. For all these reasons other people are drawn to you.

POSITIVITY

You are generous with praise, quick to smile, and always on the lookout for the positive in the situation. Some call you lighthearted. Others just wish that their glass were as full as yours seems to be. But either way, people want to be around you. Their world looks better around you because your enthusiasm is contagious. Lacking your energy and optimism, some find their world drab with repetition or, worse, heavy with pressure. You seem to find a way to lighten their spirit. You inject drama into every project. You celebrate every achievement. You find ways to make everything more exciting and more vital. Some cynics may reject your energy, but you are rarely dragged down. Your Positivity won’t allow it. Somehow you can’t quite escape your conviction that it is good to be alive, that work can be fun, and that no matter what the setbacks, one must never lose one’s sense of humor.

a day like any other

2008-07-09T22:52:00.000+08:00

supposed to do CSC now. but i really don't have any ideas for it at all. -.-

today was just like any other day, so basically nothing special happened. hmmm... was thinking about whether i should apply for the National Youth Forum. i'm quite interested in it, but i'm not really sure if i'm suitable for it.

i REALLY need help for mathematics... don't understand anything at all and don't even know how to go about doing the tutorials... sigh... maybe i can get yingteng to help me. =p

and yu ning, you'd better stop talking about that perosn. if not i'll smack you in the head someday.

oh yeah, i'm going for lynn's guitar concert on friday! going with lijun too! can't wait to see the two of them. XD

-siLvia

back to update.

2008-07-06T02:44:00.000+08:00

i'm finally back to update after a week. have been wanting to blog since monday, but i've always either ended up sleeping or wasn't given a chance to use the computer. =P

FINALLY managed to complete my current affairs quiz. i almost wanted to pull out my hair over it..... ready to let the other 33/08 people "refer" to it now. haha. shall talk about some interesting things that happened for the past week.

monday:

biology practical turned into an unexpected home economics lesson. i practically spent 10 whole minutes TRYING to cut 4 pieces of pathetic potato chips into the same shape and size. was so pissed off with it that i started chopping them violently into smaller pieces when i was done with my experiment. after the chopping, having been able to use my all-so-wonderful-and-sharp scalpel for the first time and being all so bored from the experiment, i resorted to peeling off the skin of my potato. i was doing it happily until shi min said 'you do know that we have to return our potatos right?' o.0

wednesday:

got back my chinese literature paper. i passed! 49/100. really didn't expect myself to be able to scrap a passing grade. =)

now kelmen and i both owe yu ning a starbucks drink. =(

biology wasn't as wonderful though. i only manage to hit a S grade with a score of 36/90, which is 40%. sigh. i'll just have to work harder.

thursday:

i only manage to score 47/100 for chemistry. it's still a E grade, but it was really a lot worse than what i expected. made a lot of careless and stupid mistakes that make me feel like slapping myself. sigh. don't really know how to face zhi hong....

wanted to cheer myself up during lunchtime by getting a yoghurt ice-cream. didn't feel much better even after eating it, so i practically just wasted my $2.50...

friday:

manage to pass the second portion of my china studies in chinese paper. =) so now my total score for csc's 27/50, which i think is reasonably okay, considering the fact that i failed to hit on quite a number of key ideas and requirements for the questions.

skipped biology lecture just so i'll be able to complete the preparations for project work pilot test day. heard from grace and min yu that mrs ng knows that someone skipped the lecture. PRAY that she won't pursue the matter. sigh.

pilot test day nearly killed me. had to handle the two laptops most of the time as i was the only one who knew how to play both of the games, and also explain our activity to a lot of people in order to obtain the survey results. my dear group member yu ning practically just asked people to fill in our surveys randomly. -.-

i swear i'm SO going to get revenge on that kevin yeo. he made me repeat my explanations and read out the survey questions to him verbally. all these just for 1 survey result! u would think that when you're so tired your friends would not make things harder for you right? never mind, at least i won him by 1 mark for csc. =P

went back to Zhonghua to collect my graduating certificate with kelmen and yu ning after the whole thing was over. i definitely must ask ying teng to remind me to NEVER walk alone with the two of them again. they kept tackling me regarding the two of them. so much for the fact that friends are supposed to be understanding and encouraging. -.- nevertheless, it was fun chatting with them on the way there and back home.

met hui ling and sze ting at Zhonghua too but they had to leave early. =(

oh yeah, yu ning already lost the first page of his certificate. all because he was having fun swinging the booklet on the way home. haha.

saturday:

met ying teng and yu ning at serangoon macdonalds to study. was chased out of the place as the crowd was getting bigger. wanted to go study at nanyang jc but we got intimidated by the amount of people there. resorted to studying at a void deck where we played a few games of stress with yu ning's mini poker cards. it was more fun watching the two of them play, compared to me playing it myself, as i lost to ying teng in barely 5 minutes time. haha.

watched lord of the rings: the return of the king on channel 5 a few hours ago. aragorn and legolas are really good-looking. haha.

i still love the classic line from the movie.
'witch king: you fool. no man can kill me. die now.
eowyn: i am no man.'

oh yeah, my mathematics score is 23/83. sigh...

-siLvia

6 down! 0 more to go!

2008-06-27T23:19:00.000+08:00

just came back from eating macdonalds supper with my family. feel so guilty now. never mind. i'll run doubly hard to compenstate for what i ate. =P

today marks the end of the torturing weekdays. somehow i'm not happy that the papers are over. just very tired... maybe it's because i knew i really screwed up my papers.. sigh. here's a summary of how i did for the various subjects:

GP- i added a lot of evidences which i'm really not certain about for my essay. hope they won't cause my essay to be out of point. essay was still okay though. comprehension on the other hand really frightened me. i couldn't rephrase my answers into my own words properly and i couldn't find the points for the summary.

CSC- didn't study for it and didn't think that it would help me even if i DID study. only expected myself to be able to write a few sentences. but i managed to write at least 2 pages for each question. however, knowing the standard of my CSC, i guess i would just only be able to a get a few pathetic marks.

Chemistry- it was the subject i studied for the most and was also the one i had the most amount of confidence for. couldn't finish a lot of questions due to the poor management of time. as such, i skipped a number of questions that Zhi Hong practised with me a lot of times. already know that i've lost 22 marks. really feel that i've let him down.

CLL- the things tested were 5 古文, 5 唐诗, 2 新诗 and 茶馆第一幕. out of so many i only studied 1 古文 and the half of the notes for 茶馆第一幕. wrote quite a lot for all of the questions but i think a lot of my answers were out of point. furthermore, i already know that my answer for 山居秋暝's totally out of point.

Mathematics- haven't done quite a number of my previous tutorials and i've had been failing my lecture tests with really horrible results. even though i had time to redeem myself by studying before the paper, i was too lazy to do so. to make matters worse, i only had faint memories of the topics that i've managed to study. counting the marks for the questions that i was able to do after the test, i guess i can only score a maximum of 30 plus marks, which is still a U grade.

Biology- i managed to FINALLY study and figure out DNA and Genomics just an hour before the paper. didn't manage to study Organisation of the DNA Genome. even though i did study, i was quite tired during the afternoon paper and i made a lot of silly mistakes that really made me feel like slapping myself. i took HIV protease to be a fibrous protein, mixed up on the concept of the leading and lagging DNA strand, and made the stupid-est mistake by forgetting to do complementary base-pairing for my MCQ question and only taking the DNA strand at face-value.

Conclusion- really hate myself for not studying properly for this june holidays. wasted a lot of my time by slacking and watching video shows. i guess it's all retribution for only thinking that the JCTs are not important. sigh...

ps: maybe i'm just not suitable to pursue medicine after all...

-siLvia

new look!

2008-06-24T23:10:00.000+08:00

oh yeah, there's finally a new look today! haha. it's quite nice right? must thank jun for helping me decide on this. =D

-siLvia

CSC was horrible.....

2008-06-24T22:56:00.000+08:00

CSC paper was horrible. i actually managed to write more than 3 wrong words... 地震 became 地振, iodine 的碘 became a word that doesn't exist, and 盐 was only written as yan2.... haha.. i wanted to write down 'salt' initially. but i was afraid that my CSC teacher would faint.

okay, considering i didn't study for the paper and i really didn't know what to study for it, it was an accomplishment that i was actually able to write more than 2 pages for both questions. *claps* haha.

the walk to bedok mrt station was quite enjoyable today as kevin yeo was entertaining yingteng and i along the way. he's REALLY super lame. and my english is REALLY not good. i only got an A1 by luck. =X. haha.

2 down! 4 more to go! i shall finally start studying my CLL tomorrow... sigh....

(ps: was it really obvious that i was not talking to him on purpose? u can't blame me though... =P)

-siLvia

1 down! 5 more to go...

2008-06-24T10:02:00.000+08:00

ok. i've no idea why i'm blogging now, since there's only like 3 more hours to my CSC paper and i've not started studying at all. haha. pretty prepared to fail this subject. XD

GP paper 2 yesterday was a total disaster. the passage was difficult and the questions were a killer. and i was just bragging to kevin yeo before the paper that i got A1 for my o level english grade. haha. it'll be embarassing if i fail GP this time... sigh...

never mind. the JCTs are only 10% of the promos.... ( so i can afford to fail them =X ) haha...

1 down! 5 more to go! =)

-siLvia

konbanwa!

2008-06-15T00:40:00.000+08:00

since my english standard has been dropping, i shall write in proper english now. wonder how long it will last though. hehez.

anyway, nothing interesting has happened these few days. i have only been watching television and anime the whole time. feel so guilty now... (but i really can't get myself to start mugging. everytime i look at my notes i feel like sleeping... sigh...)

still very fickle-minded about what blog skin to use. haha. sorry jun for having to help me look for one! i know i'm very troublesome and picky. =P

oh yeah, suddenly remembered some words i saw from the show 'my lovely kim sam soon'. really like it.

" -sing, like nobody is listening.
-dance, like nobody is watching.
-work, like you don't need money.
-live, like there is no tomorrow.
-love, like you've never been hurt."

it's nice right? =)

sigh. must really start mugging soon... and exercise too! haha.

-siLvia

hajimemashite!

2008-06-10T19:15:00.000+08:00

yo! hajimemashite! (aka. nice meeting u for the 1st time) this's my very 1st entry since dunno how many years ago. i think jun will freak out when she knows about this...

anyway, used to have bad memories about blogging. but i guess everybody has to move on right? hope this blog will be able to last though! XD

shall stick to this template 1st until i find a better 1. or i can bully jun into helping me find. but i guess she's too busy now anyway. =P

omg.... 2 weeks more to JCT and i'm till not starting on my studying yet... ouch! my dreams are flying away........ NO!!!

-siLvia =P