Sunday, July 13, 2008
went to support lynn for her guitar concert on friday night. took me and lijun 2 whole bloody hours to get to the place... -.- i swear this is the first and the last time that i'm going there. we even missed 5 songs. luckily we still managed to see lynn perform for a few minutes.
lynn really looked very nice in her costume. =) guess all my friends are good-looking right? haha. anyway, we gave her a famous amos cookie and a stalk of rose. we're so nice to her right? =P
saw him during the intermission. kinda expected to see him there, since he's performing too. but i really didn't know that the feeling would still be there. i realised i still couldn't really face him, so i turned away and pulled lijun away with me immediately. i guess i haven't really gotten over things yet. it still hurts a lot deep down. it's been 3 years already, but why am i the only idiot who still can't seem to be able to let go of things? to me, he was really a very good friend, that's why it still hurts so much. i can't forget how close we used to be and worse still, what he did to me. he mattered so much that i still can't forgive him at all. people always say that hatred requires as much energy as love. that's why when i hate him, it really actually weighs a lot on my heart. i even hate him more than i hate that girl. the answer is simple. because he matters more to me than that girl. i'm sure i'll be able to get over her in a few more years' time, but i really don't know if it's even possible for me to get over him at all. a heart once broken can never be properly mended again...
because of him, i was actually emo-ing for the whole of friday. ironically, it was chee leong, who vaguely reminds me of him, who was trying to cheer me up. haha. chee leong, thanks anyway! i really appreciated it. =)
oh yeah, i know my mid-years results already. GP- D, CLL- E, Biology- D, Chemistry- D, Mathematics- U, CSC- E. i'm quite okay with my marks because i kind of expected myself to do more badly. haha. anyway, when i told my dad my results, he asked me to 保重. -.-
-siLvia
; 5:12 PM
