Tuesday, October 28, 2008
i'm bored and tired. but i don't feel like sleeping now. supposed to have finished editting the oral presentation slides and re-writing my script. but i have no mood to do so too. only done with editting our skit.
school starts again tomorrow and ends on wednesday. looking forward to the excursion.
but not really looking forward to seeing the two of them. maybe it still bothers me? somehow we've all realised that they are spending more time together now. but he still denies it or refuses to give me a proper reply when i ask him about it. maybe they are already together and they are keeping it a secret. it's not much of a secret though right? haha.
had the weirdest dream last night. dreamt that i told him my feelings, but he didn't give me a reply. then i questioned him is it because i'm not her? is it because it can only be her? what a weird dream... i guess i've been watching too much drama and anime recently. should cut down on them soon. haha.
do i really feel something for him? or is it all just an illusion? i know he's not the one and neither will i continue this for very long. but i just can't seem to get it out of my head. haven't talked to him much for these few days. no longer msning or smsing him now. told myself to put everything to a stop. i definitely made a promise with myself to give up if we do not happen to wear the same shirt on that friday. 'coincidentally', we've never wore the same shirt again. guess everything's over already. sigh. shall allow myself to move on...
hmmm... maybe i should go to sleep now.
-siLvia
; 1:17 AM
