Sunday, October 12, 2008
went to have a haircut with lijun in the morning. my hair is much thinner now, but it still looks the same. =S
yesterday was fun. had a 33/08 class/clique karoke gathering in the afternoon. only 5 people from the class turned up! such a UNITED class right? so only 6 people in total: me, yingteng, weihui, yajing, yajing's "friend" and cheeleong. it was fun though. my sore throat was bad, so sorry everyone who had to listen to my horrible voice. =P we sang quite a lot of songs. didn't pay a single cent though. as yajing's "friend" paid everything for us. hehez.
met up with lynn, lijun and yoyo for dinner after that. finally gave lijun her birthday gift. haha. we sat at ajisen for 3 whole hours. bet the people there hated us. we told yoyo all the funny things that happened in zhonghua and about the lamp post and the coconut head. it was a good and enjoyable talk. =D so yoyo's passed the 'test'. now it's jasper's turn. haha. =X
signed the withdrawal form yesterday. going to drop biology entirely. wasn't even allowed to fill in the appeal form to appeal to keep all my 4 H2s. so now i'm in the same subject combination as yingteng. chemistry, mathematics, chinese literature, general paper and china stuides in chinese. didn't want to give up my biology, but i was left with no choice. i should have known that this would happen. if only i had worked harder. but i guess it's all too late now right? not taking biology anymore would simply mean that i'm no longer eligible to apply for medicine. won't even be given an opportunity to apply for it or to attend the interview.
after thinking over the matter for so many days, i realised it wasn't really losing the ability to become a doctor that's affecting me so much, but rather because i've just lost my direction. so where am i supposed to go on from here? i don't know what course i should study in the university and even what career i should choose in the future. it feels very empty to be wihout a dream or even a purpose in life....
looking through university courses. quite interested in NTU's college of science. maybe i can't become a real doctor but i can still become a chinese physician right? lol.
-siLvia
; 2:10 PM
