Wednesday, October 15, 2008
currently waiting for the printing of my written report draft 3 to end. it's 46 pages long and the total word count is 3575. haha. we'll surely be slaughtered by mr kwan for that. bibliography's not done yet as i'm simply too tired to complete it. will complete it during the next draft. ><
received the email from ms ang just now. as expected, i didn't make it for outward bound india. it was really expected right? since i didn't even make it past the prerequisites set for the promotional examinations. only have myself to blame now.
i really don't feel attached to this school at all. the school claims that opportunities are given to students in many different aspects. but how come i've tried for so many and i've gotten none? if these activities and programmes are to really uncover our hidden potentials, why are the entries all based on results? are results really that important? so what if i didn't get the results the school asked for? does it mean that i didn't try my best for it? does it mean that just because i failed 1 more H2, it makes me less capable than the others? it's not like i'll be tested on all my 4 H2s when i'm in india. will the people and animals there give me an integration test to complete before i'm allowed to move on? will they test me on my chinese literature before giving me food to eat? How can the school judge a student by his or her results entirely? so what if the school has gotten an excellence award? the school only takes care of EXCELLENT students. if you're not part of it, you can forget about standing out and doing a part entirely. is that really education? it really makes me wonder....
on a different note, mdm peng will be helping me to appeal to drop chinese literature and still stay in temasek. this way, i'll be able to carry on with my chemistry and biology. wonder how high the chances are.
the whole results thing is really getting to me. there are moments when i just feel like giving up everything and to drop school entirely. maybe my life would be better pursuing other things that do not require a university certificate. i guess i can always choose to go sell sugarcane juice instead. haha.
looking forward to the chinese literature trip to the teahouse on the last day of school. he's going too~~ =)))
-siLvia
; 1:41 AM
